Best In Class
Posted by Trixter on January 4, 2015
This was my hobby philosophy for over two decades. It’s the philosophy that created all of the demoscene productions that I am known for, such as 8088 Domination; I’ve placed 3rd or higher in every competition I’ve entered. It was what fueled my involvement in the Abandonware concept, which would likely have died on the vine without the search engine I created for the original Abandonware Ring (this was in the days before Google and RSS existed; without a search facility, it was cumbersome to find games). It was what prompted me to design and implement MobyGames with my friend Brian Hirt (several years before wikipedia existed). It created the MindCandy series of DVDs and Blu-rays. I am proud of all these accomplishments.
This was my hobby philosophy.
I’m stepping down from always trying to be the best at what I do. The primary reason is to preserve my sanity, as I am haunted by mistakes I’ve made. At least one night a week, I lay awake unable to stop thinking about them. Plus, it contributes to an unhealthy obsession (which also keeps me awake) over trying to be the very best I can be in my various hobby pursuits. I can’t keep assigning self-worth to project success. It both paralyzes me and tears me apart.
There was a time when I thought I needed my hobbies to deal with life and stay sane. Today, I’m finally realizing that all of the successful accomplishments in my life were achieved when I was simply relaxing and having fun. So that’s what I’m going to do — have some fun and work on what I want to work on, rather than try to win competitions and impress people in my various circles. If I get another minute of fame along the way, then that’s a nice bonus, but it’s not the goal.
So what’s next? What is “fun”?
- More blog posts. I enjoy writing, even if nobody enjoys reading what I write :-) Maybe someday my kids will find this blog and get a better sense of what their father was like.
- S00p3r sekr3t demo project. See you at Revision! Hint: It’s not a solo production. Hint #2: I am the worst coder in the group — that scares me tremendously, and it should scare you too.
- S00p3r sekr3t vintage gaming project. Think big!
- Personal Computer Sound Museum. This has been in the works for ten years. Unless there are complications, this will be implemented in Drupal 8 because I need a functional taxonomy framework and Drupal seems to be the only CMS that has one. So, when Drupal 8 is out of beta, I’ll start tinkering.
- A vintage computing audio podcast, time permitting.
Most importantly, I hope to make my family and friends laugh this year.